She hurts, deeply

 She wonders why people can live so freely.

Everything has changed. 
She left it all behind, but it all came back once the conversation started.
They both are connected by another relationship that cannot be denied.
For her, it left a mark and a loneliness. 

She spent her days, weeks, and months,
trying to fix what was broken, trying to stick all the pieces.
And whenever she felt like leaving to get into a new life,
it did not go as expected.

She wanted to take a break, and she is still wanting it.
Yet, the undeniable relationship keeps getting in between.
What is worse than a self-abuse.