The man next to the street.

Do you remember the crossing line next to the coffee shop?

I was looking at that when you hugged me for the first time.

Well, not officially hugging me, but yeah. What can I say.

That moment when everything felt like time could never tick anymore.

It was crazy. No, I was crazy.

***

Almost a year had passed.

I thought life would get better.

How are you now?

Are you okay there?

I do not want to care though.

Or, perhaps a bit.

I remember the last sentence that you mentioned in our last second of call.

It did hurt me so bad. You knew already that my love language is gift.

Yet, why?

Why did you even dare to say that one sentence to me?

I was speechless right after hanging up the phone.

The worst set of feelings in my life are 

to be left behind, unappreciated, and forgotten.

***

I am fine now.

Yes, definitely fine.

They said life is today.

This day is a clear memory.

I ran a day without a dream.

I forgot that I have left someone yesterday.

***

I have finished my meal.

So done with all sweats and complaints.

Have you ever felt this?

Climbing to the top of the mountain, but never fall.

Once you fall, you will never climb up anymore.

I thought it is common, yet not.

***

They said life is today.

Hopefully everything will be good.

Happy Tuesday.

Walking Away

"And I know you'll find someone who

gives you the time I didn't give to you.

I'm running low.

I'm sorry but I have to go.

It may be I who never feel

You gave me something so real

I'm sorry but I have to go."

- Running Low by Shawn Mendes

***

Perhaps he is running low.

However, it is true that it is me who is walking away.

I never count on how many days I have spent with him.

My friends said that sometimes, or probably most of the time, I created a bad decision to leave everything for him. Yet, I am okay. I am fine. I finished everything quickly just to meet him. I did it again and again. I cancelled a lot of appointments. For him.

No. I am not a caring woman. He is right.

I did nothing for him.

So right now I am walking away.

And never coming back.

***

For sure.